What if my mother met mary --
Please don't remind me we're ghosts --
What if jesus was my big brother --
I think my father is dying --
Self-portrait as asughara --
Folding for a cruel man --
What if mary auntie called me on my birthday --
Fuck me in a fresh grave --
"But why did you feel you had to kill yourself, baby love?" --
Self-portrait as a cannibal --
What if magdalene seduced me --
I thought i could be well --
When the hurricane comes the men protect their brothers --
What if jesus sought vengeance --
I was born in a great length of river --
What if mary auntie explained mortality --
Self-portrait as an angel --
I was alone beyond measure --
What if my father called jesus a bastard --
Self-portrait as an abuser --
Content warning: everything --
Self-portrait as a god who is loved --
What if my family came to the hospitals.